YOU

Everything happens for a reason. Yes, even the sad ones…. my theory is that they happen to make you realise you weren’t all that great as you thought. It can shred your heart into a million pieces, seeing your expectations, hopes and dreams just crashing down all at one go, but life goes on.
Oh yes, it goes on.
Well I should thank my circumstances, really for making me realise all these things; that I’m not as smart or whatever as I thought myself to be. SAJC? Oh please, that’s for high achievers…people like me should be stuck in…. in the bin. Haha. I cant believe I’m laughing through it all, but to all those who told me I was crazy to want a PhD…well, I kowtow to you…you were right.
I guess I actually deserve less, seeing how much I slacked during all those night study sessions, hardly doing a thing except laughing and talking while all those around me revised almost religiously.
Yes, I was playful.
Yes, I was dumb.
Yes, I was lazy.
Yes I was stupid…hell, I still am.
Yes, I deserved less…I was so rude to so many.
Yes, I know you’re not proud of me, but neither am I.
Yes, I am all of the above and more, and thanks for pointing it all out one by one. You are my idol, my saviour. You showed me the light when all I saw was only darkness. You led me to the door when I got lost. You are the greatest, the best, the only one I should have ever listened to. You are my---.

THANK YOU.